I am trying to understand what is going on after doing some Mantak Chia exercises. I have tried to follow the microcosmic orbit and I seemed to be intuitively pushed into this practice.
At first, I have followed up the back down the front direction but it seemed kinda alien to me. Even tho my doubts, I could feel warm or even sometimes hot energy flowing down the front of my body and I seemed to be more confident, courageous and pretty much more healthy man-like.
The thing is, after a while it seemed that doing it the other way – up the front and down the back was more natural. Due to this I seem to have reversed sexual polarity: I feel feminine and radiant, very intuitive and emotional (sometimes overly emotional) and something like ‘filled with rising water’.
I have tried to let it be but it seems that the energy is constantly moving up the front and it does not balance on its own. Is there anything I can do on my own to go back into my old, male polarity?