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Steve,

Thanks for sharing! I identify strongly with your upbringing. I, too, was raised by a dominating mother. My father was there, but his presence was weak, and even though he objected to some of the ways my mother raised me, my mother was in control. I think you hit the nail on the head. I have to find my center. Boundaries were definitely crossed, and I tried to defend myself but was continually shot down by my mom and not backed up by my dad. In turn, I pretty much gave my parents and even my sister the cold shoulder for most of my life. The anger was internalized, and I pretty much became numb to most emotions. Most people say I seem so “chill”, but actually it’s just apathy. That may be why I’m not experiencing much of an emotional release yet with the healing sounds…because I’m not as in touch with my emotions. Anyway, it’s all part of my journey, and it led me to Qigong, which I’m very grateful for.

The feedback I’ve received so far HAS been wonderful and inspirational. It has really given me the spark that I needed to continue my practice with a more optimistic attitude:) I think the microcosmic orbit could be very useful in opening up blockages I feel in my throat and chest energy centers. I will definitely continue with the healing sounds, and try some of the other practices like “fusion” you and others have suggested.

Thanks again,
Art

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Steven,

I really appreciate the words of wisdom. Your analogy about time makes perfect sense, and I think I expect too much too soon. I will look into Deep Healing Qigong and Primordial Qigong forms to strengthen my practice. Regarding loving kindness, I think that goes hand-in-hand with the inner smile, and the saying “what you resist, persists.” Personally, I’ve been practicing resistance for most of my life with family and career choice, and I’m tired of it. Acceptance seems to be the way to go. Thanks again for your time and compassion. I’m glad I can come back to this in times of frustration.

Take care,
Art

[Art.B]

Steve,

I guess I’m trying to release a lot of anger and resentment from the past, which arises from time to time when certain memories are triggered, mainly mom issues. I currently have fear and anxiety issues that I’m trying to resolve. I’ve tried the psychotherapy approach, specifically psychoanalysis, but that seemed to make things worse, at least in the 8 months that I went, and got really expensive.

What you said makes a lot of sense though. I have to develop the connection to my organ spirits before I can expect to see any kind of release, and I’m sure that takes time and total acceptance of the process. I have noticed some sensations while doing the sounds in the corresponding organs, so I think I’m on my way. I’ll continue my practice with more emphasis on the inner smile, and see where that takes me. Thanks for the pointers.

Peace,
Art

[Art.B]

Thanks Bob and Steve. I really appreciate your advice. I totally agree that the inner smile is key. With the microcosmic orbit meditation that I’ve been doing, I noticed that when I smile to the energy centers, they respond much more readily than when I try to push, or manipulate them.

It seems to me that the healing sounds are a great tool to use when you have extreme emotions, but I’m wondering how effective they can be when you’re relatively relaxed. In other words, how useful has this practice been for you guys at releasing emotions that are hidden in the subconscious?

Thanks,
Art

[Art.B]

Hi Jade,

I appreciate your feedback. That makes a lot of sense to take measurements. That will give me objective data, whereas it’s easy to say this is not working because of the resistance that’s built into my psyche. Maybe I’ll try rating the emotions of sadness, fear, anger, hatred, and worry on a scale of 0-10 before and after the healing sounds, and see what I find.

Thanks!

Art

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Thank you very much Michael for your advice 🙂

Art

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