wendy

To make the juicy story short

A 64 year old woman said that she finally felt understood, she nearly died 1,5 months ago and ever since she is expanding, seeing and hearing things, being able to heal people. She said that I received my ‘opening’ in ‘shots'(through meditation) while she is gradually opening from a near death (illness of her…[Read more]

I like # 11:

I think you should read ‘madness’ in a poetic sense, it is a inner freedom, a sense of anything is possible, anything can be accomplished, not being bound by rules or morals but feeling free to explore but yet act as a normal person within your society.

I think many inventions came into existance that way… if the mind can…[Read more]

To make things a bit more clear:

I was smiling with your posting because it felt so…wonderful, just that… it gave me a happy feeling… and made me smile

The rest of my reply came from a different place in me, and I realize that my own experience with jumping time/space lines made me react more ‘defensive’ on Michaels posting (but a good…[Read more]

Your posting made me smile…

It is already a performance to live our current life in a balanced way…

Jumping and merging with other timelines takes a lot of mental, physical and emotional strength…

Movies and mental ideas from books or channeled information, make it seem so ‘easy’ and desirable, yet doing the real stuff takes you or…[Read more]

Dear SD,

I will do my best to answer you:

If you want to do a ‘ceremony’ your intention must be very clear. What I notice though is that there two voices in your posting. Maybe you were not clear but if I read it as I do I see that there is a letting go desire and ‘meeting again’ desire.
These are two conflicting intentions. If you want to…[Read more]

All in all it is an interesting discussion, as it took me many years to get some sort of grip on what ‘reality’ is… and you know what… I don’t know.

Some must have thought I suffered from delusions and some said it was as real as the cup I am holding. I lived for many years telling myself it was delusion because I could not accept that…[Read more]

Is this not just another side of the same page. I am getting pretty tired of this kind of ‘messages’ where we are warned for disasters and how fear is amongst us and we are controlled and we need to alter, change to escape the disasters ahead. These messages are exactly creating that fear. And there is absolutely nothing new what is presented…[Read more]

Bagua, very glad you can find truth in it

It is very profound and worth to reflect about it because it is about how much we breath in and how much we breath out, and how much we stay present and aware in the still points….

Chris and I are home for one day between have been walking the Labyrinth in Chartres (France) yesterday ~ reflecting…[Read more]

I can’t help you with any dragon qigong but I can tell you

Dragons choose you, when time is ready in their ‘opinion’ it is possible you go through an initation. All I can add to that is, if you want this, the dragons ride you (test you) in order for you to ride the dragons.
You can’t manipulate them to want you, to initiate you, it can happen…[Read more]

It is hard to say if the faceted pearl serves the same function as the bagua.
The bagua is a very unique set of energy ‘waves’ coming from the trigrams with the central core, which I see as the gateway. Personally I don’t get the same feeling from a pearl, but it is worth playing with it to see if it works for you in a similar way…[Read more]

I will go into your questions more deeply but this one I really like to do myself on a warm day like this summer it is great to do it outside:

Lie with your stomach down on the earth, under the trees, at least in the shadow, on a blanket and a flat cushion for your head.
Relax your body by doing gentle belly breathing, every out breath you…[Read more]

From my side this feels like a last note to you, for now, concerning your illness

Your will/mind power is clearly not really liking the ‘doing less is more’ approach but maybe your mind can understand this:

Kidneys like darkness, they like silence and they like to rest,
actually they replenish from applying these things

Which means, lots…[Read more]

Surrendering is complete absence of the will/mind, complete. No compromise there, not a bit, not a tiny bit.

The will does not want that, is actually fearing it deeply.

So real surrender is absolute absence of will and acceptance of potential very deep fears, to allow – in your case – earth to take over your body, become your body ~…[Read more]

To me will power is one of the three major players:

WILL
EMOTIONS / FEELINGS
EARTH CONNECTION /BODY AWARENESS

Those three interconnect very closely with each other and are equally important.

If one of those three is too strong it will effect the other one or two.
In case of will power often the body is put under huge stress ( I see…[Read more]

Dear SD,

Just a very brief thought on your program:

Why not reverse it, building up points till lets say 50 and allow yourself then to ejaculate or watch porn, which results in negative points lets say – 30 for porn and – 20 for ejaculation – 10 for coffee, etc.
You get a positive feedback loop instead of a negative one, and you might feel…[Read more]

I wish you strength and joy for life…

Wendy

Adel,

I am doing these practices for nearly 18 years now and I feel I am still learning from the fundamentals, even when I teach them myself I learn from it. So don’t feel hesitant to move on with the other practices. It is a neverending process of moving on and looking back, learning more and going back, walking and living the maze.

As for…[Read more]

‘I am glad that your overall experience turned out to be positive’

yes it just took me about 10 years of integration 🙂

As for the Kunlun and other related threads, I get lost in those things.
I only can say that there is a lot of fear around the dragon/reptile energies.
I lost ‘friends’ because of it, as they were believing I became a…[Read more]

Many thanks for sharing one of your experiences that made you who you are.

I had a sort of similar one with the immortal, where he asked me ‘do you want the power’, I was very aware of the fact that this could either be a good or a bad question, not knowing at that point what entity was asking this, maybe he was offering something but wanting…[Read more]

“With this knowledge all fear of death is extinguished”

No it is not, it actually opened up many more questions, like, what is death exactly?

“Otherwise forget about it and don’t let it interfere with this lifetime”

I tried to forget but after years of trying, I figured there was only one right way, that of acceptance and integration, all…[Read more]