fusion and heart feelings

Hello

I feel realy like the new aproach with my health care program is going well. I have realy no cravings for the moment to drink cofe or to look at porn. I have also completely stoped eating cakes and that sort of things with sugar. Not a big problem for me before, even though I have been working with the issue of keeping or going down in weight.

To be able to accomplish this to not fall into adictions or an adictive kind of behaviour seems realy to streangtening my spirit or shen. I feel a sort of cleaniness feeling and an increase generally of my willpower. I think the spirit feels much better about this and I can also recognise the feeling in my soul from earlier periods of greate performances in my life.

This was actually just an introduction to my question or I am not shore it is a question jet. I was thinking on one thing Steven wrote to me or someone else about adictions earlier, he wrote something like: Adictions are wery interesting beacase they anounce that there is a deeper soul issue that need to come in the light and be worked with. But he wrote this with completly different worlds for shore.

Anyway what happens to me now is this. And it might also have to do with my regular practises of fusion of the five elements part one.

I feel quite alot energy in my heart. It was also affected by the tooth issue. Perhaps the tooth is connected to the heart, but not necessarily so. Anyway I have been in loved with a person not at all interested in me for a long time. I have decided to not meet her and to try to be free from that issue. Anyway my heart longs for her wery often, but anyway less and less ower the time I think. I feel my heart burst for need for love, that is not strange after 10 years of celibacy. But also I have noticed that the heart longing for that women, is hidding another love issue that was going on for a wery long time ago, about 22 years ago.

I have to come to a question from all this. I think my question is something like this. I know I have read in the taoist litterature about that love feelings might be seen as evil in that sence that they might not be good for your health if they are to eccess. While working with fusion one I work with negative issues related to the organs, and move then from the spheres into the tan-tien true the pakua. But is this feeling of what you perhaps can call excess love an issue that fits into this kind of practise? I have some difficulties seing the love issue as a negative feeling. Even though shorly it is wery negative for me when the love is not answered. One way of dealing with this is of course to try to expand the love I feel for that person to the whole human race or something like that, to see it as a wery nice feeling arising from within, and try not to go into the aspect of needyness.

Anyway I feel that the heart has started to heal in some way, but it also feels alot of need to continuing this. It is probably just the top of an ise rock.

Well it became a question after all 🙂 🙂

All for now.

SD