New Journal Entry

I had an enjoyable practice session tonight, and
it inspired me to restart my practice log . . .

JOURNAL ENTRY:
I decided its time to start recording my practices again.
I haven’t really been in the mood for a while, but I’m feeling
like I want to again.

With all the talk about the Deep Healing Qigong, I felt
inspired to do a deep extended version of the Advanced version
of the Deep Healing Qigong.

My main goal was to do the advanced version of DHQ
but to not force myself to be locked into a set number of
repetitions of key elements. I decided that I would just start
the form and repeat a particular part as *many* times as I felt
that I wanted to or needed to before moving on. As it turned
out, I ended up repeating several elements much more than
what I would do if I were trying to keep the time down.

I tried to clear my mind of any superfluous thought and just
concentrate on how I was feeling at any given moment. I
practiced whilst in a state of inner smile directed at
parts of my being that I feel need attention.

With my eyes partially open and partially closed, I put
myself into a wonderful “trance-like” state of pure
awareness. To be honest, the energy flowing through
me today while doing the form was much more intense
and profound than usual. It felt like my soul was
being washed with this cozy pleasant feeling that
permeated my whole body. Part of me felt like
I was transitioning to another state of consciousness.
In all seriousness, I’ve never before gone as far as I did.

It was exciting! I began feeling a sensation of breathless
anticipation swell within me as I felt a burgeoning of
a higher level of being. After being in this state for
a while, my desire for progressing even further
urged my will to try to encourage the transition.

Of course, you never want to do that.
Immediately my mind would fill itself with some silly thought,
and then bring me crashing back [the most silly of which was
suddenly hearing the old “Tootsie Roll Pop” commercial in
my head with ” ‘Mr. Owl, how many licks does it take to get
to the center of the Tootsie Pop? ‘ ‘I don’t know; let’s find
out; one, two, (crunch), three. Three’ “]. Damn it,
where did that come from? Suddenly I’m back to reality, and
“just doing qigong” in no special state. Luckily, after a
few minutes of continued practice and clearing my mind, I would
once again return to this higher state–this threshold of some
higher level of being–or at least the beginning of the threshold.
I would stay in this state as long as I could. I wouldn’t go
so far as to say that it was bliss, but it felt damn good! My soul
felt like it wanted to take off like a rocket.

Of course, at some point (fortunately, sometimes not for a while),
I would grow too excited for what higher level I could possibly
achieve, and then CRASH . . . in comes another stupid silly thought
that would jar me out of the state.

But overall I was able to do almost all of my practice from this
higher level state, and of course feeling so good, I intentionally
dragged the practice on as long as feasible without making it
obvious to myself I was doing so.

So I took almost 2 hours to do one extended version of the form,
but it was great.

Wonderful. Simply wonderful.