specifik kidney program

This is about my new way of handling the retention practise and the symtoms of weak erection and dripling urin.

Today I was wisiting my MD who works with western medicine and homeopathy and antroposophic medicine as well. I was talking with hem about the two above given sympthoms and he told me that they where symtoms to the specific homeopatic remedy I am on.

So perhaps the symtoms isn´t from my use of porn. I did suspect that the homeopathy could have been the cause, when he read about similar sympthomes from the particular homeopathic medicin I am on, I felt that this must be it.

Still I like to deal with my retention practise with more focus and try to do the good things. What I mean by that is to if possible connect love and sex with one or more women. The above symptomes has scared me just enough to give me more will and streanght to stop the porn practise, I hope. So, let us not focus on that part, but the positive vision and program instead.

The above kidney program includes retention, intercourse and porn. The new thing if I follow this program is that I will do retention quite much regardless if it is in the summer or in the winter. But it is not an obligation, everything in the program is free, but restricted. It is like handling money, if I have earned high scores then I have scores to spend.

The reason for using scores or points in this way is that I often use a trial and error method, trying different methods untill I find somthing that works. This method with points did work quite well with regard to cofe and my sexuality at least at the beginning. Then when I did owerwork I didn´t manage to follow it and I did let everything be free for awhile, just focus on managing the work.

Now I am back to this program and so far using it for a weak or so it works quite fine, it helps me to focus on the things I want to do and not want to do. In some way or another I realy want to have the zero point and then I will not eat bad things on the list and I do the qigong etc. So it works fine for the moment.

SD

Well beacase my new idea of my health program, to more or less do everything I can at the same time to try to heal the problem, I have decided to also do retention according to the kidney program.

The high scores for retention makes it more important to follow that part of the program.

Generally high scores will indirectly streanghtens my will to not do thoes things that I had choosen to have high scores.

There is also a possibility to do intercourse, which also if done in a proper way has the ability to heal my problem. So more sex and flirting is a nice thing to do this summer. Quite nice program actually 🙂

SD

Hello!

No I suppose I was wery unclear.

What I think has helped the erectional dysfunction is: No porn. Wery litle ejaculations or full retention. Using big draw. Using testicle massage and breathing.

Irong shirt: When I build Jing with retention I got another problem from time to time. That is when I feel I have plenty of sexual energy and I got many morning woods, erections, during the night. It then happens from time to time that the big draw isn¨t enough to stop the erection. That is even though I take up alot of energy to the head, the erection is still there. What I have to do is to stand in an iron shirt possition, nearly allways I then chooses the standing three poose. Then I does the big draw standing and that will solve that problem, the erection vanish by the big draw and it is possible to go to sleep without being horny as hell 🙂

I think this has something to do with masturbation. I know Mantak Chia´s advise is to not do much masturbation in combination with your retention practise. I think he writes someting about that it easily become a habbit. Well with so much extra sexual energy it realy is easy to make a habbit of it. You just have to learn to do the big draw emediately, when you have morning erections, and learn to enjoy the calm sexual energy, and not excite it to much. To clearify what I have noticed is that if you do much masturbation with your morning erections, then they come back many times during the night. I think the masturbations produces even more sexual energy and the big draw can´t handle it all, some get stuck in the sexual organ. And beacase I not live with a woman I think what is missed is the yin energy. Doing iron shirt adds that yin energy that also calms the sexual energy. At least this is my interpretention of the situation.

The iron shirt helps. It stops the erection. When having such erections that not ends with big draw it is easy to continue masturbating and then doing several big draws in a row. I know also that some of my trials to reach 100 days of retention has been stopped just within such situations. Suddenly I come during those period with wery exited Jing. The iron shirt is wery efective to end the cycle.

I have had in my mind to try retention without masturbation. But never have done it actually. But I have done less masturbation than before, while doing retention. When doing retention and creating alot of Jing it is easy to overindulge in sex of any kind. My intuitions tells me that this is realy one reason for why the retention might go wrong. You have to be able to create lot of Jing and still calmness even in your sexuality. Letting it be wery potent, but not overindulge into the nice feelings of it. Of course you can enjoy it from time to time, but not to much.

Perhasp I mysrlf is learning more and more to see the difference. One of the dangers from what I have read is that you create alot of Jing, but if you overindulge in sex you actually are loosing Jing in the long run, even though you think you are building. Scary things. Moderation is the key, but not allways easy to find.

It would be interesting to know how others on the forum doing retention, is dealing with overindulgence in terms of masturbation or intercourse or other sexual activities as well.

Hopes that did clariafy the issue. and perhaps also adds new questions 🙂

SD

Yes I think it is good for you to do some regular ecxercises.

Like massaging the testikles.
Cool draw.
Grounding.

And maybe some more if you like. And you will have even better experiences!

Having blue balls doesn´t sound wery good to me. Does it hurt also?

Good luck to you 2.

SD

Hello

There is a clear pattarn to when I have problem following the program. That is when I am overly tired.

This time I was tired beacase of to much physical exercises. This monday I did try jogging my longer round, but it was to hot, so I didn¨t manage the whole round. About two to three miles, which usually isn´t a problem. At wensday I tried again, it was hotter than I thought that day to but I manage to run the long round.

At tuesday the realy nice wheather continued. I did meat one of my tight friends and we did a realy long walk in the forest to a lake for bathing. Both the walk and the sun bathing was realy nice, but the walk was a bit to long for me. On the way home I did feel realy exhausted and it did hurt in the kidneys and adrenals, whihc is a realy bad sign.

The next day I had as my cleaning my home day. That was something that realy was needed. I did quite alot cleaning even though wery tired. I realy should have taken that day of instead. During that exhaustion I did watch some porn. And this is typicall. It is when owerworked, usually from my work, that those things happenes.

Anyway. I think it is not a big deal what happened from one point of wiew. But from another it is, beacase I´m not follow what I have intended to do. When exhausted it is realy much harder to follow the program.

Anyway, this happening did make me think about the program, and it gave me the push to do some changes, the ones I wrote about above. To see it from that perspective is every step back rely a step forward, beacase it make me change things that might work better.

The retention practise is not my main focus at the moment either. Not as it was when I did it more diligently in the past. For the moment I just see it as a part in my total health care program. A program I hope I will learn to adapt so that it suits me, and in the same time learn to follow better and better.

The important thing is that I want some progress ower time with my energy level and health. And as I might have written before, this total aproach seems to work better than doing just some parts of it. Thats why I am hanging on to it. So even though I miss some parts of the program I do follow alot of others and togheter I hope everything I do will help me in the long run.

This is quite similar even though completely different to what wendy wrote about the universal tao practise. To have a strong will and still be enough yin to accept what is. That is similar to my health care work as well as seen in the practise.

It is important to realise that it is impossible to work with full dedicatioin at so many levels at the same time, without loosing the focus from time to time.

Anyway I do not like to miss the program! It is rather complex to be with it keep the will year after year, and anyway keep on trying.

SD