We are ALL children of God

(the title being a play on Hunter S. Thompson’s book “fear and loathing: on the campaign trail ’72”)

I want to relate my experience with dragons, as it does relate to the issues of fear and love.

Let me give some context. I was in love with Wendy, but we did not have a relationship. We were both in dying marriages; I had fallen for her, but I was still too closed energetically for her to “see” me. We were going to meet in a couple of weeks at one of Michael’s retreats in England. I was a bit desperate. I was sitting outside, musing about Wendy, when I realized that while I was open to allowing my energy body to resonate with her, I was not allowing my energy out in a way that would allow her energy body to resonate with mine. When I felt that, there was a shift in me. A couple of hours later, the following happened, and I sent her the following email (that I have edited a bit for this posting). Lower down I will comment on this experience.
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I was all of a sudden in a dusky space. I was disoriented, seeing nothing, but sensing something there. I then opened my heart to you, and it was wonderful to feel a golden field of love from you enter my heart. And then, in the dusky space, a dragon was suddenly eye to eye with me. I was a bit afraid, but then asked it what it wanted, and it got closer, and then it was you grinding your pelvis on me. The inner me in the dusky space didn’t know how to move, and then it did. And, since then I feel spacy, and feel like I am seeing through two eyes – my own, and a dragon covering me.

I was feeling a bit overwhelmed with all this and so lay down. I was opening my heart to you when the dragon feast began! It began with one and then it seemed like many feasting away on my heart. They didn’t seem emotional or evil or anything, they were just ripping away at it like a hawk does with a rabbit. This was extremely frightening, have my flesh being ripped away again and again, leaving me as a skeleton with only vapors for a body. There was no way to avoid this, once it had started, I knew there was no running from this. I could sense that if I tried to hide from this, they would attack me in other ways. If I didn’t have your heart to connect to, I really might have gone crazy. Eventually they grew tired of their sport and left.

Later in the evening, I went for a walk. Every so often a dragon would be there, for a heart snack. At one point it was like there were three of them and I thought something like…what do I get? And suddenly one dragon left a golden egg in my heart. When I felt the golden egg, I saw you move langorously in the golden jing and briefly felt I was golden too and in your arms.
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For the next couple of weeks, I had the difficult time of integrating this dragon energy. Initially I was fierce with people, as I now had this feeling of power and apartness from all of these little weak people. But, with Wendy there was the powerful, loving energetic exchange at a distance. Sometimes I would feel individual dragons and noticed that there were many of them: mean, vicious, wise, loving, caring etc. The issue became, which energy fit best with me and my life. Being with Wendy, it was the gentle and loving energy that fit best with me for the long term.

The dragons feasting one me seemed like a sort of test, a running of the gauntlet, a determination of my commitment and my readiness. I can easily understand how people who did not have the motivation of love (like I had for Wendy) would have a very difficult time going through that initiation, or even the preliminary checking out that went on before that.

Now, almost three years after that initiation, I have learned to be careful and respectful of the dragons. If they are connecting with me, or displeased with what I do, if I try and hide from their energetic nudging, then I will have a horrible headache, get spacey etc. They are not nudging me to do anything as such, but nudging me towards virtue, self respect, and the love of Wendy! Other than my loving with Wendy, I do not have much place for their energy in my life. Their energy for me is powerful in the heart and sexual in the loins. The big issue is how to give them a place in this world. Their mid-astral vibration is more embodied than the high-astral vibration, and more pure than many low-astral vibrations.

Based on my experiences with the dragons, I think that the reptilian experiences that some people have comes from lower astral entities that are frustrated with their inability to have bodies and thus try to manipulate people. The dragons are in the mid- to high-astral and seem to be more wanting to help us, but wary because of what has happened to them in the past.

Their immortality, though, does not help me with the issue of mortality of my human body, as they do not understand the limitations of the human body. There is too much of a gap between the density of us and them.

Sorry for my broken English.

Maybe I still look after or maybe I don’t, but in all this there are some problems.

This just about that what Michael Winn has called pseudo-esoteric.

Another is to ask oneself when and why one still needs a human teacher, I mean in spiritual sense.

Thirdly I’m very happy to notice as an European that there is also purely Western (practical) tradition of Alchemy.

HOWLER HOWDY DIDOODOO

K L I N G S O R
Arise! Arise! To me!
Your Master calls you, nameless one,
She-devil of old! Rose of Hell!
Herodias you were – and what besides?
Gundryggia there, Kundry here!
Come here! Here, I say! Kundry!
Your master calls arise!
-RICHARD WAGNER, Parcifal

Bagua, very glad you can find truth in it

It is very profound and worth to reflect about it because it is about how much we breath in and how much we breath out, and how much we stay present and aware in the still points….

Chris and I are home for one day between have been walking the Labyrinth in Chartres (France) yesterday ~ reflecting and exploring into the hidden shadows and opening new windows ~
Only the second time walking it I could do it with full awareness and depth ~ the first walk I was too excited and full with impressions of the surrounding, other people, the thrill of walking the Labyrinth finally after years of wanting to do it.

This ‘walking’ brought deep insights of how we operate as humans, how I operate in my own life.

Tomorrow we leave for Scotland to explore more ancient sites, being open for new impressions and old wisdom….

Breathing in and out the Cosmic Breath,
Wendy

http://www.lessons4living.com/chartres_labyrinth.htm